# I'm a new Muslim and my faith has crashed after the first high. What should I do? *A convert facing doubts after the first high of faith* - URL: https://muftiabulayth.org/r/oag-f3hxcdy/s/1/ - Date: 2023-05-09 · Kind: question · Transcript tier: machine · Recording: Converts And The YouTube Dawah Scene | Mufti Abu Layth (0:00–6:18) - Status: latest answer on its topic; general teaching - Watch from the start of the segment: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAG-F3hxCDY&t=0s - Recording page: https://muftiabulayth.org/r/oag-f3hxcdy/ **Topics:** Converts and newcomers; Resilience in hardship **Question as asked:** I converted to Islam from a non-religious background after being introduced to it on YouTube. I went through a very high iman phase, but a few months ago hit a brick wall and have been going through heavy doubts, some intellectual and some from the lack of kindness I saw in some YouTube dawah people; your reasoning and kindness have pushed me to keep trying. **Summary (not a quotation; machine-made, unchecked):** Mufti Abu Layth says the first energy of faith always burns out, so the aim is to learn and live the faith while it lasts; at its core Islam is justice and kindness. **Checked position (checked by two independent reviews, not by the channel):** Mufti Abu Layth says the energy that comes with embracing a faith is temporary, so a burnout is inevitable. **Evidence, his words at 3:08:** “the thing about that energy is it is it has a kind of temporality about it it has a uh it's not never-ending it comes for a certain set period there will be a burnout yeah it's inevitable” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAG-F3hxCDY&t=188s) ## Longer summary A caller who recently converted to Islam from a non-religious background says they went through a very high iman phase, then hit a brick wall and have had heavy doubts, intellectual ones and others caused by the lack of kindness and empathy of some YouTube dawah figures, and thanks Mufti Abu Layth for the reason and kindness of his channel. Mufti says he appreciates it and that life and faith are journeys with speed bumps and hurdles. He explains that embracing a faith brings an energy that runs with a person but is temporary, so a burnout is inevitable, and the hope is that while it lasts a person immerses themselves and learns, like a booster pack that takes a rocket into orbit, otherwise there is turbulence when it drops. Mufti says the caller's recognition of compassion and kindness is the core of Islam, which in a reductionist nutshell comes down to two things in a verse of the Quran: justice, so that people receive what they are entitled to, and kindness and compassion. ## Sources and names cited - iman (faith) - dawah ## Transcript (machine tier, 0:00–6:18) [0:00] tell us a bit about yourself I thought then I did you have you converted to Islam or are you I have yeah okay um I'll keep it very brief because I know it's late for you um but I I converted about a year and a half ago um I came from a non-religious background and then just from YouTube I think like a lot of other um people in this generation I got introduced to Islam on YouTube you know the whole Towers theme and everything and then um and then I converted and uh it was it [0:38] was amazing um I think as some people have described I went through a very High Iman uh kind of phase you know I was very excited very very passionate learning every day and everything yeah um but then I hit this like brick wall and a few months ago and ever since then um you know I've been I've been going through heavy doubts but I just wanted to say that um your Channel and your your kindness and your spirit [1:15] and your reasoning has really like pushed me back to stay you know or at least to keep to keep trying because I mean they were they were there were doubts from different angles but some of it came from I would say intellectual doubts but also a lot of it came from you know some of like the lack of kindness or the lack of you know empathy and Humanity that I saw in some of the YouTube uh dawah people um only some of them but [1:52] but seeing someone like you who used a lot of uses a lot of reason and doesn't accept certain things that um you know just sound absurd um even though it can be quite controversial for you um I just wanted to say how much I appreciate that and um and yeah Allah bless you I really I do appreciate that and I it means a lot it means a lot that any of my things have you know they come that they've been helpful and especially in your journey since you've come to Islam [2:30] and then found let's say some whether they're speed bumps or hurdles along the way and um and it's it's naturally these things are a struggle I guess you know in many ways life itself is a journey and faith is a journey as well and it's um it's it's so sometimes there's a um see you know when a person even if they weren't Muslim and they are sorry even if they were Muslim and they became practicing or especially in your [3:08] case where you Embrace a faith there comes with it this energy and that energy runs with you you don't need to run with it it will run with you yeah but the thing about that energy is it is it has a kind of temporality about it it has a uh it's not never-ending it comes for a certain set period there will be a burnout yeah it's inevitable and the problem is once that what the hope is let's put it like this [3:45] the hope is that with the energy whilst it's in full swing a person starts um they they start immersing themselves in a way that it doesn't have to be above their head but in a way that that maybe they learn things maybe they start to live uh the faith in a way it enhances them it gives them some meaning it's a bit like a kind of booster pack with a rocket that it's taken it to orbit and then now it's in orbit so when it when it drops it's cool the problem can be if when it loses that booster [4:23] pack that it's not in orbit and so then there's turbulence and it's like well okay well what do we do now and so I think alhamdulillah that you the fact that you're innate nature recognizes compassion kindness that these things this is seriously this is the this is what the entirety of Islam is nested foreign [5:01] in Arabic only thing in a nutshell in a very reduced reductionist manner this verse of the Quran that uh that this is all really Allah is sorry that he is but it all comes down to just two things one Justice because Justice is also a form of esan but a different manifestation that you are providing the rights of a deprived people to them they are Seeking Justice [5:40] and it's so important because the world without Justice just wouldn't wouldn't work and it's such a fundamental core you know when a person has been wronged they in their like their heart cries that they know how they've been wronged and they so this at the Primacy Allah says and okay so people can get what they are entitled to they are not wrong and then kindness compassion that's it and what follows ## Cite Mufti Abu Layth Archive, segment oAG-F3hxCDY/s/1. https://muftiabulayth.org/r/oag-f3hxcdy/s/1/ Not a fatwa: these answers were given to specific people at specific times. 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